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Name: Robbie
Location: Illinois, United States
Birthday: 6/21/1987
Gender: Male

Interests: Reading, movies, T.V., going out, shopping, having loads of fun and never feeling bad about it
Expertise: Umm I speak French does that count...and I know a little about magick and stuff but I don't know if thats an expertise or not
Occupation: Student
Industry: Retail

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Member Since: 3/2/2005

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Saturday, August 12, 2006

Pensieve

That's the perfect word for me right now...pensieve. I've been thinking a lot lately and as well all know...when Robbie starts thinking bad things happen. I'm just starting to feel overwhelmed. I mean, I'm making decisions today that could seriously affect the rest of my life...I'm not prepared for that. I'm deciding a major and a minor that will determine aspects of my future life. How am i supposed to know what I really want to do. I haven't been able to try it so I'm not really an informed consumer in that aspect. Beyond that, I'm terribly lonely. Its kinda sad. I can be surrounded by people and I'm still lonely. It might just be remnants of angsty teenager, cause I still have a year left where I can say that. I've started singing a lot, taking lessons...and I think I'm pretty good. My teachers think I'm good, other people think I'm good, so maybe I'm good. Am I great? No, I'm not great...but I could be. I've increased my range by a fifth in just six weeks so we'll so what I can do with more training. I'm starting to leave the tenor section and go into contralto. So basically, I can sing mezzo-soprano stuff if I really want to. But what's cool is that high notes aren't a strain for me so maybe I can get higher. I learned that my cute, little nose and my high cheek bones are the reason I can sing so high. So that's cool, at least my nose being small is a good thing, so I guess no rhinoplasty for me. So I've decided that I'm going to quit smoking all together, cause I wanna sing professionally some day, on stage of course. Broadway? Yeah thats a dream, but off broadway will work. Hell, at least its performing. Well anyways, thats all for now. Love you all.

4:31 AM - 16 views - 8 eprops - 4 comments - email it

Monday, May 29, 2006

Whoa a POST!!!

I never post, so what is this?!?! Well I guess its a post.

So the year's over, 1 year of college checked off...five more to go til my Masters. Heres the rundown of my first year...in chronological order:

1. Got here, met some really cool people, started classes/ got a tattoo

2. Started hanging out with totally new people

3. Passed my classes alright

4. Had a fight and a subsequent falling out with Sarah Sterne

5. Winter break (too long kinda boring)

6. Came back, made up with a friend, not talking to S.S.

7. Took classes I really didn't enjoy but thought I should take

8. Met some other really cool people started hanging out with them

9. Went to the big gay conference, had an amazing time (started to drink practically every weekend hereafter)

10. Had a great time with my friends (developed a serious crush on one)

11. Spring Break, too short, kinda boring. Piercing #1: eyebrow

12. Came back, took other classes I was okay with, started singing.

13. Piercing #2 lip

14. Had amazing times with my coworkers (who happen to be middle aged women, some with grandkids)

15. had a friend pretty much fall in love with me

16. had a fight with most of my friends

17. made up with most

18. One of my best who apparently didn't want to be my friend in the first place started to hate me, thus not inviting me out to dinner with them on her last day here, while everyone else, save one person, was invited.

19. Friends leave after a fun night of drinking and Midnight Breakfast

20. I leave... back to Bloomington

So thats my year, in a nutshell, kinda intense, kinda lame, extremely dramatic. I kinda don't wanna go home, kinda can't wait to get out of here. But I'll be home on tuesday...probably before dinner

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Wednesday, May 10, 2006

This is gonna sound really "Oh poor me"-ish but I'm being serious.

This is the conclusion I have come to:

I am a BITCH.

That's all, simple as that...a bitch. I whine, I complain, I act like I'm better than people, and what's worse is that I hate it when other people do that. I used to make fun of artsy major people cause I thought that it was pointless, but now I find myself wanting to pursue a Music Performance minor. What do I plan on doing with that? I have no idea, but I wanna do it. There's a lot I want to do. Too much actually. Too much...But my medicine is kicking in so I find myself unable to write or think...night

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Saturday, April 29, 2006

	In a slip second How long does it take for one to realize that their life is going nowhere? that they have no plan? That they're scared...and alone? I'll tell you...it can happen in a split second...oh look, there goes a second.
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Tuesday, April 25, 2006

So here's the thing...

I'm not really sure what I'm feeling right now. At this moment its fear. Fear of fucking up my life. Fear of where my life is headed. And fear of my friend group falling apart. Seeing Sarah on Friday made me realize that I miss her so much. I mean I always miss her but when I see her, I don't want to leave her. And she's gonna be gone all summer (don't get me wrong I'm incredibly happy for her, but still I'm gonna be lonely.) And seeing her on stage made me want to be on stage again, I miss it. I mean I'm not that great of an actor and I'm cool with that, but I kinda wanna sing on stage. So I've decided that I'm going to be a music performance minor, so I'm pretty excited about that. Which means, no smoking, intense study of music, and talking to Sarah more about how to take care of my voice.

I also saw Kanye West today and I decided that I want to be a celebrity. Well, I want a room full of people chanting my name and cheering when I walk out. Thousands of people there to see me...that would be amazing.

I've also been thinking about my love life (or lack) and even though I'm lonely...I'm pretty much okay with being single. There is a boy I kinda like, and no he's not the same one who I've liked for like ever. Its a different one. But for now I'm gonna go...I love you all

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Pensieve

Whoa a POST!!!

In a slip second

So here's the thing...